A Question of Light
I had things to do— but there I stayed, in my chair, cat on my lap, cuppa tea, utterly undone.
A Break Between Rounds
Storms on a houseboat are different than storms in a house on land. Especially at high tide with strong winds when the boat moves and rolls. Like last Sunday with gusts up to 60 knots. You heel and bounce pretty good. A bit unnerving. You think about water coming in over the hull and sinking your houseboat. So you pay attention to your lines, best before the storm(!), making sure they're tight, making sure your pilings are strong, and of course making sure you have flashlights and candles and water. Because if the power goes out there’s no running the water or flushing toilets as you don’t want your catchment tank to fill and then overflow, since the pump would not be operational. Our boat is tall and tippy with a broad side that catches the wind from the south like a sail. During this last storm, pictures danced on the wall as we rock n rolled; pans swung from their hooks on the ceiling, drawers flew open. Lines squeaked on their thimbles like rusty gates, ramps moaned, as the wind roared over us. We watched the tide book, eager for low tide to arrive, and when it did, at last, we sat on the mud and high wind was just high wind. Small leaks appeared here in there in our ceiling. We used buckets and bowls and rags to catch the drops. And then the leaks would mysteriously stop. Perhaps the wood swelled and blocked their entrance. The cats were not at all happy and longed for their old life in Sebastopol. Through it all we thought of Adele, who lived here for 24 years, 88 years old when she passed. A day before she died, she told her visiting son how much she loved this houseboat. We thought of the storms she'd weathered and this buoyed us.
The houseboat of our 82 year old neighbor, Barbara, is a gigantic heavy floating home. During the storm it began to ram the pier. I lashed a life ring against her railing to work as a bumper and my friend Neil, a man of the sea, arrived in foul weather gear with rope and a come-along, and calmly secured her. Our neighbor, Iran, from Barcelona, offered homemade chocolate chip cookies, and her husband Dancer, who had lived as an anchor out for 12 years, scanned the anchorage with binoculars to make sure no one was sinking or without a skiff to escape. The storm brought the community together even as it carried away untied kayaks and paddles and threatened to tear apart rotting roofs and skylights and penetrate floating hulls that clung to piers and pilings tied with thick line in simple, ancient knots that have held mariners fast for a very long time.
There is something artistic about knots. And functional, with different styles working for different purposes. Much the way words and sentences, images and feelings work for me as a a writer, as I explore and evoke and capture, if but for a moment, a fleeting truth. Like the further discovered charm, and relief, provided by the muddy flats of low tide on a very wind blown day.
A wet world view
Cat Dock
Each houseboat dock in our harbor has a different personality. Issaquah is known as the garden dock with verdant planters of flowers and shrubs and trees that create a beautiful jungle corridor. People walk their bikes and dogs are kept on leash and cats sun themselves and step out from behind blue ceramic pots to purr and perhaps allow you to pet them. Liberty Dock is like this as well. Main Dock is a wider, shorter pier with evidence of kids - bikes and toys and playhouses catch your eye next to planter boxes of flowers and ceramic sculpture and rusty art. Here on South Forty we don't have planters on the dock so much, but it does allow for a wider feel. Some people walk their bikes, others ride. Some, but not all, dogs are off leash and there is but one cat, a sleek stealthy all black feline named Karue who cruises about in the open and has learned to navigate with the resident canines. We keep our two cats inside our houseboat where they appear content to sun themselves on the deck, or go up to the sky dock and roll on the surface, sniff the chairs, and watch the birds soar overhead. Pierre likes to sit in the window and watch people on the dock, mostly tourists, who stop and gaze in astonishment, often, at their, our, surroundings, and take photos. Sometimes they even sketch or paint. And me, no longer a tourist, often find myself doing the same. Funny, I should need a reminder of how beautiful and wondrous this place is, how fortunate I am to call it home. But seeing the smiles on the faces of visitors, petting a purring cat while walking the planks, stroking a friendly dog stretched out across the dock, brings me back to the moment, to right here, right now, like the lovely cat above who stops to smell the flowers, and perhaps inadvertently, shows the one with the camera . . . the way ~
What I've Seen Float By
photo by Carolyn Ingram
New Year's Day, Anonymous Pie, 2017
Midnight Kiss
As the clock approached midnight, Santos realized he just might make it to the new year and lifted himself out of bed. Sylvia was at the window in her nightie watching the lights of the boats on the water. They heard footsteps on the dock and people gathering as the clock wound down . . . or was it up? Santos could never figure that out - at some point in life, the uphill climb maybe leveled out for awhile and then somewhere along the way actually became a downhill slope and then and then it was like that British character in Sun Also Rises who, when asked how one goes bankrupt, answers, two ways -slowly at first, then all at once.
Maybe that was it. Why did Santos suddenly remember that line from 40 years ago, in a book written in the 20's, as he stood in the window with midnight approaching next to a woman he'd been with for 43 years?
Down on the dock, a voice shouted - Happy New Year! And another answered - Happy New Year to you! And the fireworks were shot off the Embarcadero in the City and if you looked just right, peering through the windows of a two story house boat down the way you could see brightness against the dark sky, a showering of red and blue and gold as rockets peaked, exploded, and descended in remnants of color. . . Santos reached for Sylvia. She smiled, so lovely in the moonlight, as they kissed and welcomed in another new year together.
making cake
It's the last day of the year and I’m baking a cake
taking all the ingredients from the pantry of yesterdays
like the List of Best Of’s:
the houseboat we bought,
the marriage of our son,
the return of our girl,
and the losses, too -
our friend Adele,
David Bowie
the Princess, as well
and the fouled unthinkable election -
throw it in, the division of opinions, passions, beliefs,
the erection of walls, the discover one morning that
some are now on one side/ some now on the other . . .
gently fold in sunrises, if you will and frost it with
friendships new and renewed –
make it a cake ‘in the round’ so it’s always turning a
corner, and give it two layers with icing in between!
A Yes cake.
A yellow cake.
A new cake from the old year to share with friends,
to taste and remember, to savor and hope, with bowls
and beaters licked clean and the houseboat filled
with the sweet aroma of good will and good work,
as we slice a generous piece for all.
Things I See When I Look Up
Sometimes we hear them running across the houseboat roof, seagulls, as if they're doing sprints. At first the cats looked up in wonder, then they got used to it, the way we all get used to the strange sounds in a new place - the creaking of the dock, the moaning of the ramp, the wind chime jingle of the sailboat rigging in the wind. So often my focus is on the water, the reflection of light, the things that float by. But one day while visiting my friend Jim in his houseboat, Casa de Amor, I looked up and through his skylight, I saw an astonishing sight.
Enigma
I have come to believe that the whole world is an enigma, a harmless
enigma that is made terrible by our own mad attempt to interpret it
as though it had an underlying truth.
Umberto Eco
Floating Yuletide
photo by Dennis Bayer
"Sometimes a change of perspective is all it takes to see the light." Dan Brown (a neighbor with a camera, the gift, and a view from across the channel also helps!)
Between the leap . . .
Felines of So. Fo.
& the landing ~
In The Pink
Subject: When did I Get So Particular . . .
our daughter works in the produce section of a small organic market and often does the shopping now. She gets 20%. We’re out of bananas I say, but only get the slender ones, not the big fat ones. And don’t get green ones. You know me, I don’t buy green bananas, and she nods because she knows. Oh yeah, over and over she knows. And tangerines - get them when they are a little soft, but not too soft - you can tell the ones that are easy to peel. And there’s a secret to bosc pears, too . . . but okay we’ll save that for another day.
I’m like the old woman in a scarf and layers of big clothes and a little shopping bag - mine is Pancho Villa, pink - from a student - and when did I get so particular about my fruit, when did house samurai trade his shovel and hoe and ax and shears and typewriter and ties and briefcase and satchels and rolled joints in the glove box and jazz on the radio and homemade invoices and dread of rainy mornings and the arrival of Christmas with no money but still the bills and now gifts, and the song shine of family . . . basketballs, too, converse and ankle braces and bags of ice . . . & the classic car and vintage truck . . . for the fruit shopper who has the inside angle, knows where to go, and when and what to buy, and how, and now, writes when he wants, feels himself rise when it strikes, no matter the time time or the where where and writes because it’s now and waiting for then will leave him standing on the platform . . . waiting for a train that may not come 'round again ~
SS Maggie
"Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Happy Thanksgiving, South Forty Pier, 2016
"A story is something glimpsed from the corner of the eye in passing." - V.S. Pritchet
(specially enhanced by Dennis Bayer)
This is so deliciously trippy! I was sitting on my couch reading Mary Oliver and looked out, mesmerized in the moment by the movement and quality of the water from this narrow view I had. A sweet reminder of what I love about it here. So I snapped the shot, which of course didn’t do the image/feeling justice.But Dennis' rendition sure does. Far far out! I love it.
Higher Ground
a little something I put down . . .
Subject: The first morning of the dark days
-Wake and make coffee
- feed the cats
- Read a Mary Oliver Poem
- watch the sun rise over the water from your roof
- hug your daughter, hug your wife
- stroke the cats
- make oatmeal, enjoy each bite
- wash dishes
- check email
- stay away from Facebook
- write
- be there for others
- figure a way out, over, through this dark time
- rise above politics and seek higher ground
- vacuum
- change kitty litter
- practice tai chi
- shower
- take the call from a friend
- listen to Vivaldi
- go for a walk
- think about lunch.
11/9/16
Casting Aside The Weight of Facts
photo by Dennis Bayer
Still, what I want in my life
is to be willing
to be dazzled-
to cast aside the weight of facts
and maybe even
To float a little
above this difficult world.
I want to believe I am looking
Into the white fire of a great mystery.
I want to believe that the imperfections are nothing-
that the light is everything- that it is more than the sum
of each flawed blossom rising and fading. And I do.
- Mary Oliver, from The Ponds